It’s not as much resisting change as being bored with an agenda being constantly forced via so-called entertainment. Particularly when having to pay for the privilege via the BBC.

My wife traded up in terms of beer consumption but apart from that I’m struggling to compete.

Consider myself as dissident as f*** and whilst I have never watched these Matrix films, swallowed a handful of red pills back in the 90's.

But I do wonder if it might be the better option to dose up on the blue ones? To not actually give a f*** about much beyond what immediately affects me.

Pay scant attention to the news, not bother with politics and just crack on with normal life.

I am in a lucky position that I can lose myself for weeks at a time on a beautiful Adriatic Island in the summer. Swim, eat, drink, read & write fiction, generally chill out. Surrounded by family and friends. Dragging a gaggle of Grandlings around and stuffing them with ice-cream and chips. And am as happy as a pig in s***.

But back here in the UK, I am in uproar all the time. Found myself plotting death and destruction over Brexit, planning full-on revolution and dreaming of throwing petrol bombs at the Parliament, such was my rage. Cutting links with friends I have known for decades whilst conspiring with people I barely knew and still even now, cannot bring myself to even start building bridges with my old pals.

Day after day, I watch and read about politics. Absorb odd s***, watch videos of Parliamentary committees, immerse myself in the minutiae of the machinations of how the US system works and so on.

And for what? I am a spectator. Nothing more than a voyeur of world events. Passing judgement, spewing my wisdom and yet not doing anything proactive to either resist or make good on how I think the world should be?

Perhaps the blue pill is actually the sensible option? Just turn my back on all the s*** going on and withdraw from it all?

Not saying that we have to be subservient and obey without question but that perhaps turning our backs on it all and focusing all our time and effort on taking care strictly of own immediate tribe is a way forward?

Please don't read to much into this as it is more a stream of consciousness driven in large part by that end of year self-regarding reflective old guff I suspect many of us are guilty of but perhaps reaching for that bottle with the blues ones in is not such a bad thing after all?

"The Party told you to reject the evidence of your eyes and ears. It was their final, most essential command." - 1984 - George Orwell.

Lol. Asset wise, then ahead of the curve but in terms of cash, a different story. But mea culpa on that score. All the bills paid and we eat well but with far, far less in reserve than I am comfortable with. Need to address that in the coming decade if I am to achieve the retirement I hope for. Been strolling on the professional front for far to long now.

Problem is that I am not sure what I am meant to be fighting for in 2020 and onwards? Perhaps it is Brexit fatigue but having battled for the last couple plus years and seeing the result is Boris Johnson, I find myself sighing a little. A man I loathe on so many levels. Who represents very little of what I truly hold dear. Not my cup of tea at all yet I cheered his victory purely as a means to an end.

For me Brexit had a beautiful simplicity to it. A vote was held with two clear options. One won by a clear margin. Every vote equally weighted. Zero questions about its democractic legitimacy and enjoying an immense turn out. Followed by utter f***-wits telling me that not only was I the worst of the worst for voting in the way I did but what I really, really, wanted was to do it all again although purely on their terms because, when all was said and done, I was a thick prole.

Nice and clear battle lines. And an absolute resolute and never waving belief that not only was I in the right but that justice would have to prevail, one way or the other or die trying. And finally it looks like it is, via the ballot box. I drank and bathed in Remoaner Retard tears all over Christmas and even now, they still taste divine.

But after January 31st?

Not so sure what or who is worth fighting for or against anymore. I struggle to see how the tides of Globalisation can be turned back and the Progressive Secularists seem to take a bigger grip on our society at every turn.

Reckon I will give myself a break from all the shenanigans come February, for a few weeks. Once there is one less star on that s***ty flag, then I will breathe a little easier but then, to paraphrase my dear old chum Corbyn, perhaps a time for some reflection.

Brexit is, all things considered and not quite past the finish line just yet, a battle won but at hell of a cost. And I don’t write that lightly or without deep concern. I have lost respect for so so many people who previously I had considered sound but who revealed themselves as being utterly dismissive of the very basic principles of how democracy actually works. Shocked me really how thin the veneer of it all was.

Going to take a fair old while for that to heal and I suspect I will never truly trust many of them ever again. They showed a side to their personalities that I did not like nor in many believed existed. Horrible times really.

"The Party told you to reject the evidence of your eyes and ears. It was their final, most essential command." - 1984 - George Orwell.

For me the over-riding concern for the UK in the next 10 years should be full energy independence. Fracking, nuclear power, wind or wave, hydrogen cells, any and everything other than oil really.

As you might expect, I have nothing other than utter contempt for the usual Climate Emergency types but the reality is that it is in our national interest to seek out more and more ways of generating our own power needs. Their abhorrence of oil is justified as are the voices on the left who decry our turning a blind eye to the excesses of the Arab ruling classes because they buy our shiny toys.

By 2029 I would love to see the influence of Petro-dollars have waned to almost insignificance. Because those have been the cancer in our society. Would happily pay extra tax if ring-fenced specifically for research and development in this field and if successful, the real game changer on a variety of levels.

Once the UK is able to light and warm all its homes and business without recourse to any foreign input, then a whole host of other issues become solvable in record time.

Whether it will happen or not though...a good question. I suspect the tumourous impact of the petro-dollar has already effectively bought most of our institutions but we will see. Have to be optimistic on that score.

Energy is the key for me.

"The Party told you to reject the evidence of your eyes and ears. It was their final, most essential command." - 1984 - George Orwell.

No-one forces you to do anything. You can easily avoid them. I do.

I do though treasure the BBC for it's objectivity in news and current affairs along with it's constant stream of informative science based output.

I am more than happy to pay my licence fee to keep the BBC free of commercial influences but you can choose not to if it makes you that unhappy. I don't though subscribe to Sky because I want nothing to do with any enterprise that Murdoch has ever had an influence over.

For the avoidance of doubt any comments in response to a previous post are directed to its ideas and not at any, or all, posters personally.